Syawal datang lagi.....

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Syawal datang lagi tapi as usual aku rase biase je. Maybe sebab dah biase sambut di KL so x rase kemeriahannya. This year kali pertama aku x sambt raya ngan family aku and dis year gak we all celebrate tanpa pegi ke umah atuk.

Arwah atuk meniggal last april. Bagi aku x de ape2 perubahan sangat sebab aku x berapa rapat ngan arwah atuk. Tapi maybe kesian kat mummy sebab she’s very close with her.Kali ni juga aku beraya tanpa bersama-sama ngan famili aku. Demi kawan aku sanggup korbankan cuti raya aku. You owe me am!!! Tapi best gak. Dapatlah merasa gak bekerja semasa raya. Hehe….. suasana kat hotel meriah sebab hamper semua orang pakai baju raye especially yg keje front office. Macam2 stail mcm2 colour ade.

Aku stakat pakai baju kebaya last year ckplah. Baju raya thn ni aku nk pki mase wed am. Ape org kate? Save the best for last? Hehe…. Anyway sebut pasal baju the one baju yg menarik perhatian aku adelah baju abg faizul. Betul2 ala hritik roshan! Tinggi dh ade, hensem, bdn tough, siap nyanyi lagu kuch2 hota hai kat aku tu!
Apelah bang ni!

Tapi ape yg menarik psl abag ni adelah die punye prinsip. He has his own view on certain things yg mmg aku x setuju tp as a fren n as a colleague aku respect pendirian die. Tapi yg plg aku x dpt terima is bile die ckp die x nak kawen. Why would you propose someone if you don’t want to marry her? Why abang? Why must you be with someone if you know that you don’t want to spend the rest of your life with them? Why???

Sure I may not be the right person untk b’khutbah psl perlahwinan or love. What do I know about love? I’ve only have a few crushes. Yes you read me CRUSHES. I’ve never been in a serious relationship before. Dn’t ask me why cause I also don’t know why.

Am I too fussy? Too choosy? Too demanding? Or aku blm jumpe lagi my prince charming? My dream guy? My white knight? My everything? The one? Or… whatever you want to call it.

But the question is mcm mane org tu tahu dat their partner is the one? Tang mane yg diorg tgk? Sometimes it took forever for someone untk jumpe diorg punye soulmate. Yeah dats the word! Soulmate. Stgh org t’paksa tunggu b’thn thn lamenye. Stgh org tu plak t’paksa 2 -3 kali b’cerai untuk jumpe the perfect person untuk diri die. Contoh terbaik? Brad pitt- Angelina jolie. I love them! They are so perfect for each other. Aku suke how both of them influence each other’s life. Diorg berubah dengan rela n become like a great team. And the fact that they are both so different in characters, personalities membuatkan aku betul2 suke kan konsep yin and yang.

Aku percaya yg dalam hdp ini kite kene ade 2 benda yg berbeza untuk mendapat keseimbangan. Lelaki-perempuan, langit-bumi, malam- siang. Aku juge percaya yg aku perlu carik lelaki yg b’beza karakter daripada ku. So lets make a list here about myself :


o A bit plump … well not a bit lah tapi mmg plump
o Frenly and a bit playful…. In other words cheeky
o Daring
o Adventurous
o Easily bored….. that’s so true!!!!!!!
o Very musical
o Romantic…. Yes I am!
o And last but not least a very loyal fren

So does it mean aku kene carik org yg kurus, pendiam, serius, pak turut and x romantic! Ermm…. I don’t think so!!!! Ok lets make a list of ciri2 yg aku suke. Hmm….

o Funny…. (Of course!)
o Understanding
o Protective
o Smart…. In other words berkerjaya
o Dlm satu ayat penuh…. ‘ someone yg dapat menjaga aku, membimbing, melindung aku n treat me like a princess setiap mase’

Bknnye ssh pun tapi nape smpi skng x jumpe2 lg? like I said I have a few crushes tapi semuanye crash boom bang! One guy yg aku suke yg aku mmg dh confess kat die. He’s almost perfect tp dh taken .... Pergh!!!!

The other one well let just say I admire his physical but not his prinsip. The last guy yg aku suke. Hmm…. Mcm ok je. Mcmlah tapi…. Aku x tau sangat psl die. ape yg aku tau is die keje same hotel ngan aku. He's wearing white unform. N name die 's' bukan name sebenar. Hehe….
Mcm mane aku kenal die ek? Eh bkn kenal x pernah ckp pn ngan die! Erm it was in cafeteria. Aku tgh mkn wt a group of frens. He walked in. aku pandang die. Dat was the first time in my entire life aku terkedu n pandang 2 x kat orang tau!. Never in my almost 25 years of life! N aku bknnye nk perasan tapi die pn 2x pandang kat aku. Yg klako nye bile aku pandang die pn pndg so aku jadi malu!

Mulenye aku ingt die bdk baru sbb x prnh nmpk tp rupa-rupanye die lg lame dr aku! Well a few mnthslah since then slalu t’serempak n since then trs suke. Dr suke trs jadi angau. Aku plg suke time bln pause mase awal2 tu slalu nmpk kt kafetari.a. w’pun x tegur tp aku suke sgt bile nmpk die. Tp bile kwn die tgr aku jd malu nk pndg kat diorg. Tp yg paling best skali bile aku nmpk die kat luar surau tgh pki kasut. Alhamdulillah….. dh mng bnyk poin dh!!! N mase one day tu die snym kt aku. He smiled at me!!! A nd what did I do? As usual aku buat muke bodoh!!!! Argh!!!! Bangang btol aku nie !!! and yesterday …. Setelah sekian lame…. Aku nampk die gak. Die dtg dkt ngan aku. W’pun x b’ckp tp ckplah aku untuk menatap wajah die yg amat aku rindui n untk aku tahu name die. S……. ahhhh sejak tu aku rase di awing-awangan…. Angau…..