rite now i'm in johor having a short break at my parents' house. ohhh what a break!!! keje aku tdo n tdo n tdo!!!! aku dh lame x tdo selena ni. maybe sbb i'm on medication kot... hmm. skang semua org demam tp aku tabik spring kat diri aku sbb masih mampu keje 10 hari non stop dlm keadaan demam n sakit tekak! phew kalah wonder woman!
i have to admit setiap kali aku kat johor aku rase tenang and soooo inspired. i'm an oceanography major working in hotel industry but dreaming of becoming a designer! wow what an inroduction! aku nk blaja menjahit tp x de mase! i have so many ideas tp sayang..... arggh i wish one day aku ade mase untk buat semua ni. one day...
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
blackout
people say truth hurts. well that exactly ape yg aku rase skang. bile kita tau perkara sebenar kita seolah-olah trying to deny the fact... cuba nk sedapkan hati kite. tapi x de ape yg kite dpt buat untk m'ubah kenyataan.
last few weeks betul2 menguji ketabahan aku. the truth about shahrul, losing my best friend to other department.... hwaa!!!!! rase nk nangis nak menjerit pn ade. tapi apelah yg blh aku wat. so i deciedd to call this post the blackout. sebab tiba2 aku rase dunia aku gelap je. meaningless.
last few weeks betul2 menguji ketabahan aku. the truth about shahrul, losing my best friend to other department.... hwaa!!!!! rase nk nangis nak menjerit pn ade. tapi apelah yg blh aku wat. so i deciedd to call this post the blackout. sebab tiba2 aku rase dunia aku gelap je. meaningless.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
the winner takes it all
I dont wanna talk
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what youve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what youve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play
The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all
I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......
Thursday, October 2, 2008
cuti....
hari ni aku cuti. ingatkan nak keluar lunch with my family. lame x mkn same2 ngan diorg. slalunye ade je sorg yg missing. tapi bgn2 je ( aku tdo lmbt smlm.... gara2 bace harry potter.... yes intan, midah x habis2 bace lagi buku tu!!!!) diorg ckp diorg nk blk after semayang jumaat. arrgh frust btol aku! nasib baik aku x booked buffet lunch kt hotel! kalo x mau kene marah ngan diorg!
turun2 tgk family aku t'gelak gelak tgk cite bujang lapok. " jangan marah arrr..." hehe. mummy msk lauk favouriteku... kuah labu. disebabkan dah tukar plan. aku n adik aku plan nk tgk mamamia after my parents blk johor. aku n my sisters- esah n alin msg2 ade plan. esah ajak p ampang point. alin nk wat mani-pedi. aku? ntah tiba2 ni nk melaram je! aku plan nk wat henna kat kaki. tapi mcm biase... family aku ni plan je lbh.. habuk tarak!!!!
turun2 tgk family aku t'gelak gelak tgk cite bujang lapok. " jangan marah arrr..." hehe. mummy msk lauk favouriteku... kuah labu. disebabkan dah tukar plan. aku n adik aku plan nk tgk mamamia after my parents blk johor. aku n my sisters- esah n alin msg2 ade plan. esah ajak p ampang point. alin nk wat mani-pedi. aku? ntah tiba2 ni nk melaram je! aku plan nk wat henna kat kaki. tapi mcm biase... family aku ni plan je lbh.. habuk tarak!!!!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Syawal datang lagi.....
1 Syawal
Syawal datang lagi tapi as usual aku rase biase je. Maybe sebab dah biase sambut di KL so x rase kemeriahannya. This year kali pertama aku x sambt raya ngan family aku and dis year gak we all celebrate tanpa pegi ke umah atuk.
Arwah atuk meniggal last april. Bagi aku x de ape2 perubahan sangat sebab aku x berapa rapat ngan arwah atuk. Tapi maybe kesian kat mummy sebab she’s very close with her.Kali ni juga aku beraya tanpa bersama-sama ngan famili aku. Demi kawan aku sanggup korbankan cuti raya aku. You owe me am!!! Tapi best gak. Dapatlah merasa gak bekerja semasa raya. Hehe….. suasana kat hotel meriah sebab hamper semua orang pakai baju raye especially yg keje front office. Macam2 stail mcm2 colour ade.
Aku stakat pakai baju kebaya last year ckplah. Baju raya thn ni aku nk pki mase wed am. Ape org kate? Save the best for last? Hehe…. Anyway sebut pasal baju the one baju yg menarik perhatian aku adelah baju abg faizul. Betul2 ala hritik roshan! Tinggi dh ade, hensem, bdn tough, siap nyanyi lagu kuch2 hota hai kat aku tu!
Apelah bang ni!
Tapi ape yg menarik psl abag ni adelah die punye prinsip. He has his own view on certain things yg mmg aku x setuju tp as a fren n as a colleague aku respect pendirian die. Tapi yg plg aku x dpt terima is bile die ckp die x nak kawen. Why would you propose someone if you don’t want to marry her? Why abang? Why must you be with someone if you know that you don’t want to spend the rest of your life with them? Why???
Sure I may not be the right person untk b’khutbah psl perlahwinan or love. What do I know about love? I’ve only have a few crushes. Yes you read me CRUSHES. I’ve never been in a serious relationship before. Dn’t ask me why cause I also don’t know why.
Am I too fussy? Too choosy? Too demanding? Or aku blm jumpe lagi my prince charming? My dream guy? My white knight? My everything? The one? Or… whatever you want to call it.
But the question is mcm mane org tu tahu dat their partner is the one? Tang mane yg diorg tgk? Sometimes it took forever for someone untk jumpe diorg punye soulmate. Yeah dats the word! Soulmate. Stgh org t’paksa tunggu b’thn thn lamenye. Stgh org tu plak t’paksa 2 -3 kali b’cerai untuk jumpe the perfect person untuk diri die. Contoh terbaik? Brad pitt- Angelina jolie. I love them! They are so perfect for each other. Aku suke how both of them influence each other’s life. Diorg berubah dengan rela n become like a great team. And the fact that they are both so different in characters, personalities membuatkan aku betul2 suke kan konsep yin and yang.
Aku percaya yg dalam hdp ini kite kene ade 2 benda yg berbeza untuk mendapat keseimbangan. Lelaki-perempuan, langit-bumi, malam- siang. Aku juge percaya yg aku perlu carik lelaki yg b’beza karakter daripada ku. So lets make a list here about myself :
o A bit plump … well not a bit lah tapi mmg plump
o Frenly and a bit playful…. In other words cheeky
o Daring
o Adventurous
o Easily bored….. that’s so true!!!!!!!
o Very musical
o Romantic…. Yes I am!
o And last but not least a very loyal fren
So does it mean aku kene carik org yg kurus, pendiam, serius, pak turut and x romantic! Ermm…. I don’t think so!!!! Ok lets make a list of ciri2 yg aku suke. Hmm….
o Funny…. (Of course!)
o Understanding
o Protective
o Smart…. In other words berkerjaya
o Dlm satu ayat penuh…. ‘ someone yg dapat menjaga aku, membimbing, melindung aku n treat me like a princess setiap mase’
Bknnye ssh pun tapi nape smpi skng x jumpe2 lg? like I said I have a few crushes tapi semuanye crash boom bang! One guy yg aku suke yg aku mmg dh confess kat die. He’s almost perfect tp dh taken .... Pergh!!!!
The other one well let just say I admire his physical but not his prinsip. The last guy yg aku suke. Hmm…. Mcm ok je. Mcmlah tapi…. Aku x tau sangat psl die. ape yg aku tau is die keje same hotel ngan aku. He's wearing white unform. N name die 's' bukan name sebenar. Hehe….
Mcm mane aku kenal die ek? Eh bkn kenal x pernah ckp pn ngan die! Erm it was in cafeteria. Aku tgh mkn wt a group of frens. He walked in. aku pandang die. Dat was the first time in my entire life aku terkedu n pandang 2 x kat orang tau!. Never in my almost 25 years of life! N aku bknnye nk perasan tapi die pn 2x pandang kat aku. Yg klako nye bile aku pandang die pn pndg so aku jadi malu!
Mulenye aku ingt die bdk baru sbb x prnh nmpk tp rupa-rupanye die lg lame dr aku! Well a few mnthslah since then slalu t’serempak n since then trs suke. Dr suke trs jadi angau. Aku plg suke time bln pause mase awal2 tu slalu nmpk kt kafetari.a. w’pun x tegur tp aku suke sgt bile nmpk die. Tp bile kwn die tgr aku jd malu nk pndg kat diorg. Tp yg paling best skali bile aku nmpk die kat luar surau tgh pki kasut. Alhamdulillah….. dh mng bnyk poin dh!!! N mase one day tu die snym kt aku. He smiled at me!!! A nd what did I do? As usual aku buat muke bodoh!!!! Argh!!!! Bangang btol aku nie !!! and yesterday …. Setelah sekian lame…. Aku nampk die gak. Die dtg dkt ngan aku. W’pun x b’ckp tp ckplah aku untuk menatap wajah die yg amat aku rindui n untk aku tahu name die. S……. ahhhh sejak tu aku rase di awing-awangan…. Angau…..
Syawal datang lagi tapi as usual aku rase biase je. Maybe sebab dah biase sambut di KL so x rase kemeriahannya. This year kali pertama aku x sambt raya ngan family aku and dis year gak we all celebrate tanpa pegi ke umah atuk.
Arwah atuk meniggal last april. Bagi aku x de ape2 perubahan sangat sebab aku x berapa rapat ngan arwah atuk. Tapi maybe kesian kat mummy sebab she’s very close with her.Kali ni juga aku beraya tanpa bersama-sama ngan famili aku. Demi kawan aku sanggup korbankan cuti raya aku. You owe me am!!! Tapi best gak. Dapatlah merasa gak bekerja semasa raya. Hehe….. suasana kat hotel meriah sebab hamper semua orang pakai baju raye especially yg keje front office. Macam2 stail mcm2 colour ade.
Aku stakat pakai baju kebaya last year ckplah. Baju raya thn ni aku nk pki mase wed am. Ape org kate? Save the best for last? Hehe…. Anyway sebut pasal baju the one baju yg menarik perhatian aku adelah baju abg faizul. Betul2 ala hritik roshan! Tinggi dh ade, hensem, bdn tough, siap nyanyi lagu kuch2 hota hai kat aku tu!
Apelah bang ni!
Tapi ape yg menarik psl abag ni adelah die punye prinsip. He has his own view on certain things yg mmg aku x setuju tp as a fren n as a colleague aku respect pendirian die. Tapi yg plg aku x dpt terima is bile die ckp die x nak kawen. Why would you propose someone if you don’t want to marry her? Why abang? Why must you be with someone if you know that you don’t want to spend the rest of your life with them? Why???
Sure I may not be the right person untk b’khutbah psl perlahwinan or love. What do I know about love? I’ve only have a few crushes. Yes you read me CRUSHES. I’ve never been in a serious relationship before. Dn’t ask me why cause I also don’t know why.
Am I too fussy? Too choosy? Too demanding? Or aku blm jumpe lagi my prince charming? My dream guy? My white knight? My everything? The one? Or… whatever you want to call it.
But the question is mcm mane org tu tahu dat their partner is the one? Tang mane yg diorg tgk? Sometimes it took forever for someone untk jumpe diorg punye soulmate. Yeah dats the word! Soulmate. Stgh org t’paksa tunggu b’thn thn lamenye. Stgh org tu plak t’paksa 2 -3 kali b’cerai untuk jumpe the perfect person untuk diri die. Contoh terbaik? Brad pitt- Angelina jolie. I love them! They are so perfect for each other. Aku suke how both of them influence each other’s life. Diorg berubah dengan rela n become like a great team. And the fact that they are both so different in characters, personalities membuatkan aku betul2 suke kan konsep yin and yang.
Aku percaya yg dalam hdp ini kite kene ade 2 benda yg berbeza untuk mendapat keseimbangan. Lelaki-perempuan, langit-bumi, malam- siang. Aku juge percaya yg aku perlu carik lelaki yg b’beza karakter daripada ku. So lets make a list here about myself :
o A bit plump … well not a bit lah tapi mmg plump
o Frenly and a bit playful…. In other words cheeky
o Daring
o Adventurous
o Easily bored….. that’s so true!!!!!!!
o Very musical
o Romantic…. Yes I am!
o And last but not least a very loyal fren
So does it mean aku kene carik org yg kurus, pendiam, serius, pak turut and x romantic! Ermm…. I don’t think so!!!! Ok lets make a list of ciri2 yg aku suke. Hmm….
o Funny…. (Of course!)
o Understanding
o Protective
o Smart…. In other words berkerjaya
o Dlm satu ayat penuh…. ‘ someone yg dapat menjaga aku, membimbing, melindung aku n treat me like a princess setiap mase’
Bknnye ssh pun tapi nape smpi skng x jumpe2 lg? like I said I have a few crushes tapi semuanye crash boom bang! One guy yg aku suke yg aku mmg dh confess kat die. He’s almost perfect tp dh taken .... Pergh!!!!
The other one well let just say I admire his physical but not his prinsip. The last guy yg aku suke. Hmm…. Mcm ok je. Mcmlah tapi…. Aku x tau sangat psl die. ape yg aku tau is die keje same hotel ngan aku. He's wearing white unform. N name die 's' bukan name sebenar. Hehe….
Mcm mane aku kenal die ek? Eh bkn kenal x pernah ckp pn ngan die! Erm it was in cafeteria. Aku tgh mkn wt a group of frens. He walked in. aku pandang die. Dat was the first time in my entire life aku terkedu n pandang 2 x kat orang tau!. Never in my almost 25 years of life! N aku bknnye nk perasan tapi die pn 2x pandang kat aku. Yg klako nye bile aku pandang die pn pndg so aku jadi malu!
Mulenye aku ingt die bdk baru sbb x prnh nmpk tp rupa-rupanye die lg lame dr aku! Well a few mnthslah since then slalu t’serempak n since then trs suke. Dr suke trs jadi angau. Aku plg suke time bln pause mase awal2 tu slalu nmpk kt kafetari.a. w’pun x tegur tp aku suke sgt bile nmpk die. Tp bile kwn die tgr aku jd malu nk pndg kat diorg. Tp yg paling best skali bile aku nmpk die kat luar surau tgh pki kasut. Alhamdulillah….. dh mng bnyk poin dh!!! N mase one day tu die snym kt aku. He smiled at me!!! A nd what did I do? As usual aku buat muke bodoh!!!! Argh!!!! Bangang btol aku nie !!! and yesterday …. Setelah sekian lame…. Aku nampk die gak. Die dtg dkt ngan aku. W’pun x b’ckp tp ckplah aku untuk menatap wajah die yg amat aku rindui n untk aku tahu name die. S……. ahhhh sejak tu aku rase di awing-awangan…. Angau…..
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