The "V" Day

I know as a Muslim and ‘Perempuan Melayu Terakhir” ehem ehem Valentines Day is not really our tradition but I really like the idea of people celebrating their love not only with their life partner but with their love ones. Even though I never really celebrate it but I wish I am. Berdosa ke kalo aku cakap macam tu?

Alah aku nk celebrate ngan sape? Kebetulan aku cuti that Saturday (after 6 days of working, 12 hours a day!). Imagine that! Memang aku x de life langsung! Keluar date pun asyik kene reschedule je! Sori beb! I knw you desrve better! Huhu….

Anyway I woke up quite late that Saturday morning and as usual Alin ada kat bawah. Lepas borak2 ngan die kitorg decide nk pi KlCC. Baanyak plan aku ari tu (cewah!) alah setakat nak beli kasut ( heel hitam aku hbs rabak kt depan!) malu betul bile pegi briefing lagi teruk bile yang perasan tu semua lelaki. Memang mata diorg tu macam mikroskop! Teliti semua bende! Nasib baiklah aku ni muka tembok!!! Hehe.

Kitorg pegi Nose after survey2 kasut ngan Aisyah my younger sister 2 weeks earlier. Actually kitorg suke ade satu kasut hitam ni punyelah perfect n selesa! Tp…. Design die mmg x kene ngan lngsng ngan imej ‘korporat” haha. In the end kitorg beli kasut hitam yg simple2 je murah plak tu! Jimat jimat...

N then ape lg movie time! Kitorg tgk Changeling. W’pun dh phone booking tp que pnjg gler! org gler pn x seramai tu! Cerita die oklah a bit slow n a bit pnjg aku ingt more than 3 hrs rupa2nya dlm 2 jam lbh je. Maybe aku x enjoy cite tu sbb I was distracted by a news yg mmg aku dh jangka akn aku terima tp x secepat ni. I think you know what that news was Am!

Terus terang aku ckp aku jst froze to death! Like the world stops 4 a while… maybe diorg pn berkabung untk aku haha. Tp… ape nk wat dh takdir. I believe in faith and I believe yg everythings happen wt a reason. That’s how I feel Am. I’ve already prepared for it. Biarlah hati aku hancur, biarlah aku nangis non stop. There’s nothing that I can do but doakan die n wish them every happiness.

Malam tu smpi almost 8 sbb kitorg carik sekolh alam shah sbb sbtu ni ade ujian ptd. Rupa2nya sklh sains selangor tu sekolah alam shah! Duh!!! Aku cpt2 mandi sbb mlm ni ade cite ‘becoming jane’ cerita kononnye abt my fav author…” Jane Austen”. Bile tgk cite tu aku nangis aku x tau nape. Maybe sbb aku dpt rase ape yg ‘Jane’ rase or aku br ‘sedar’ aftr my numbness. Ending of the movie mentioned yg both Jane and her elder sister x kawen. Alin ckp ngan aku…” Oh nak jd mcm Jane lh ni…’. Aku terdiam. Maybe…. I mean I’m a self confessed commitment-phobe yet I’m a hopeless romantic person who always dream of her happy ending. But realitinye there’s no such thing as happy ending. Happy ending only happens in movies or fairy tales…. well that's what I feel ... at least for now...